It's difficult to understand Wei Ying's unconcern for the weight in knowing of his persecution and death. The unity and swiftness with which all sects had turned on Wei Ying had been horrible and sickening to witness. Clearly intolerable even to someone who only knows a fraction of it now, isn't Klaudia's fury testament to that? That he was condemned and ostracized and ambushed and eradicated is not nothing, and if the dismissal of it is meant to be a kindness for the sake of Lan Wangji's conscience then it's a rare unwelcome one.
And the discomfort only grows with the idea that he'd spared Wei Ying. The implication that he omitted anything in order to guide Klaudia's opinion is a wrong one, ill-fitting and incomprehensible. He had explained as well as he could in the moment, and never less than truthful. That he was wronged, that he wasn't evil, these are immutable facts and no less true for there being others similarly mistreated. But Lan Wangji is not sure how to dispute his impression either and so only averts his gaze uncomfortably.
It is true that far too much context was yet missing from his unsettled, emotional responses. How Klaudia would react to learning this context, and more so whether she is owed it in order to come to a more complete judgement of Wei Ying's character, are difficult questions with no clear answers. And despite Wei Ying's reassurance, he mulls them over for a moment.
But this is Klaudia, who once meant to etch Wei Ying's continued existence into stone, who wishes to be his friend again in her next life, who matches no one so well as him in her spirited and unrestrained nature. Does she need the full recounting? Would it change anything? Lan Wangji would not relinquish the completeness of his insight into Wei Ying's past for anything in the world, but could Klaudia not be spared those horrors and still recognize who he is? His gaze lifts thoughtfully as he responds, a little questioning, but a little challenging too, "Has she not made up her own mind already?" And is that not good enough, for her to know and cherish the Wei Ying of today?
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And the discomfort only grows with the idea that he'd spared Wei Ying. The implication that he omitted anything in order to guide Klaudia's opinion is a wrong one, ill-fitting and incomprehensible. He had explained as well as he could in the moment, and never less than truthful. That he was wronged, that he wasn't evil, these are immutable facts and no less true for there being others similarly mistreated. But Lan Wangji is not sure how to dispute his impression either and so only averts his gaze uncomfortably.
It is true that far too much context was yet missing from his unsettled, emotional responses. How Klaudia would react to learning this context, and more so whether she is owed it in order to come to a more complete judgement of Wei Ying's character, are difficult questions with no clear answers. And despite Wei Ying's reassurance, he mulls them over for a moment.
But this is Klaudia, who once meant to etch Wei Ying's continued existence into stone, who wishes to be his friend again in her next life, who matches no one so well as him in her spirited and unrestrained nature. Does she need the full recounting? Would it change anything? Lan Wangji would not relinquish the completeness of his insight into Wei Ying's past for anything in the world, but could Klaudia not be spared those horrors and still recognize who he is? His gaze lifts thoughtfully as he responds, a little questioning, but a little challenging too, "Has she not made up her own mind already?" And is that not good enough, for her to know and cherish the Wei Ying of today?